Just Moments

Occasionally there are moments in my life when I have to stand back and wonder. Like the other day and the profound thoughts that come and with it the moments of experience. They do not die nor do they fade in time. I am forever grateful. I know at times there are moments when I don't feel worthy and yet I have done nothing to bring that about. I think it is in those brief readings about the saints that I glimpse more of what they endured for the sake of the kingdom of God. No matter what I have experience I cannot think my self any better than the person I stand next to. I am only a small cog in the wheel of life, and that is as it should be. I love him more than life itself, but I am only me in a land of giants. Recordare was a word I once received quite sometime ago, a word that literaly means to remember, a word and all that has been encompassed I will not ever forget.

Now I understand why some songs spoke loudly of specific things, they were all part of the process of understanding the bigger picture. Have I truly understood it all, mostly. There are somethings that in their turn will begin to make more sense as time allows. One thing is certain, I don't feel as if I measure up to the many people who have such a deep and beautiful faith, that's the area that I don't seem to feel like I belong. I never felt throughout my whole life as if I felt I belonged anywhere or to anyone. It's the strangest part of my life that had me wonder why I loved so deeply and yet at one time I had a that grace to know that souls do collide and meld. I am happy to love more than anything to love God above all.