A Dog's Love

I have been sleeping in a chair recliner since I've been home from the hospital. I have placed my laptop on a tv tray for easier use and comfort. Unfortunately as I have found out since being home and in this type of arrangement makes it nice for my dog to occupy most to all of my time.

He has taken every opportunity to lay on my lap while I'm reclining and or sitting. Talk about a dogs love! After being gone for more than a month I think he is making up for lost time. I love it! Except it also stops me from sitting and using the laptop on the tv tray so my time has been on when he is outside or playing with the other dog. Which he does his business fast enough to get back inside and back on my lap.

So my dream of getting back to writing was short lived for the time being. I have to put it this way, the dog knows better than I do the rest that I need and I suppose that is a good thing. No wonder God gave us pets to watch over us just as he gave us guardian angels to watch over and keep us safe at all times. I am forever grateful to God and Jesus for always keeping a close eye on me. More grateful for our Blessed Mother and her mantle of protection.

A MARIAN PRAYER

A MARIAN PRAYER
of the 11 TH CENTURY
(Source Unknown)

O Mary, you are inviolate,
pure and without stain,
you who became the glistening gate of heaven.
O most dear and gracious Mother of Jesus,
receive our modest songs of praise.

We beg you with heart and lips:
make our bodies and our souls pure.
By your sweet prayers,
obtain eternal pardon for us.
O Mother most kind!
O Queen!
O Mary!
Who alone remained inviolate!

Pondering

My last post I mentioned words that had me thinking. So I took time to dwell upon them to discover why I received them. I was thinking of my upcoming infusion which will be my last one and then the following weeks after it. When I see my doctor toward the end of the month I will find out when I go back to work. I was then wondering if that wasn't was the words were all about. Getting myself ready to go back to work by getting up earlier and getting myself prepared for the day.

It may be quite possible that is what the meaning of the words were for, I don't see any other reason why for them. I know it will be difficult getting back into the swing of things with work, I just hope I am not as tired as I have been during the treatments. Becoming a survivor of breast cancer will have a new meaning and then a new way of living.

These past few months have been a huge burden on my parents, they both have gone out of their way to take care of meals and so much more while I recover. They are saints by a long shot before I will ever be one. I have been terrible at times because of the changes in mood from the chemicals. Those are the times I would have longed to have more patience, more love to give and less of my own personal lip service. Such as when the taste buds are gone, the mouth opens and the words are instant, the food tastes terrible, what happened to it, without thought about the drugs that are doing the whole business. Someday I may look back and laugh or cry like a beggar at this time period.

More than anything I place myself to blame for any hardship that occurs or any wrong, not because I want to it just seems to be a habit I got myself into and I don't even know when that even started. Well I guess this time is as good a time as any to mend what may be broken and correct those flaws that mar the way to Jesus and our Heavenly Father. If I can't be honest about myself then I might as well not write then. What I truly enjoy is doing the rosary with my parents as a family even more so now than before. Because I choose Jesus to be part of my life then I do the rosary to bring him closer through His mother.

That Time Again

The last two days have been treatment and ultrasound for something else which came out good. Had my injection yesterday after the ultrasound which happened while the earthquake was going on. Felt that much more being on a higher floor, I had asked the techinician if it was the trains passing by she thought so but then neither of us was sure since it lasted quite awhile. There was no fear at the time because we didn't know being in a room and not really having any outside people make comments.

Anyway it has been quite the time of it. I have noticed after the chemotherapy and injection the next day, I have been getting tired and all I can do is put my trust in Jesus to keep me going strong. When I go for my chemotherapy infusion I have been using my prayer shawl to keep my spirits up and my faith present and warm as the room is very cold as well. Once the anti nausea meds I am taking are past then the next phase of nausea I don't look forward to and the different meds that will assist. One thing for sure I am glad that some people go through this without a hitch and can continue their life without a problem. I am one of the lucky ones that have some of the problems but that is par for the course with other issues.

I think that is why faith is a major part in any illness we have that helps us to have the strength to endure pain and suffering and offer it up to God to keep us from falling apart or giving up completely as some have done without faith. I will not mention the many things that can cause stress as well. That too is up to God and his awesome son Jesus and the beautiful intercesion of our Blessed Mother as well. Always need to pray to her for her constant love and protection from the forces of evil that can barrage the soul when we are sometimes down and uncertain of things that go on in life. She will provide strength when asked from the heart for it.

Mundane stuff

What can I say about the lack of post other than nothing exciting has been going on. Besides faith being on the front burner of life, so far everything else is running it's course. Have been doing some research regarding the breast cancer and found a wonderful website regarding foods. Amazing to find that a majority of some of the ones we eat here are on the not to eat list as they are the ones that would cause a re-occurence of the cancer down the line. So again it is time to modify the diet and foods that I eat. It is a very good thing then that I did the research!

Still have the rash on my head with one or two areas that are painful to the touch, but not enough to call the doctor on according to the nurse. It has to be very bad indeed to call them regarding any symptoms or side effects even when the paper states to inform the doctor, just don't call them back about it unless it is very bad ore or less. Understandable, considering after my first treatment I must have called them too many times but it was a very good thing indeed since my white count all but dropped to nothing, not a good thing then.

Anyway, so much for my itty bitty issues, today is the feast of the Assumption of the Blessed Virgin Mary, a day she went to heaven to be with our Heavenly Father. It was odd today that the lights flashed a few times in the house for no apparent reason, so I figure our blessed Mother is watching over us and letting us know. Thank you blessed Mother!! Most of all thank you for saying "YES" to God about being the mother of Jesus.