Mercy

Praise God and all the mercy he gives. I took my walk and had some profound thoughts, and now am lost to what they were. I think I will start by either carrying a small pad and pencil or a mini recorder. It was really good too. But then it was also a moment of conversation with God.

Many times lately I have been thinking how much God is love but also truth and how he does so much for us. I have an older Bible, the one that I had read once all the way through. At break time, over twenty years ago I would open it up and read passages. Back then I highlighted those passages too. A lot of them are in Psalms. One day I had gone back to look at it and highlighted more. What was amazing, was the passages all related to love. These were all random readings too on various days. I haven't done that in a while. Work has made an impact and finding a moment to one's self is not easy.

For the next two weeks there will be no overtime, so that is a good thing. I wasn't doing too much anyway, maybe three hours a week. I was doing more on and off and I began thinking, who is benefiting them or me or both. I did with extra money in my paycheck, but I was also losing too. I was getting tired and when that happened I began putting off other things that were far more important, such as family, and my well being, more or less I needed to take care of my self too in spiritual and physical matters. I think for a period I was going through a dry spell, but each day there was always something special that would show how much God is at work in my day. I know many people have special times with our Lord and how truly beautiful it is to know how powerful he works in their lives as a testament to his love.

In this day it is hard for people to even understand the depths of that love, because there is so much that interferes with living our faith in this world. We have freedom to live, but do we really live it the way it is meant to be. In peace and harmony with each other, where love of God is first. Not love of self and what we can get for ourselves, selfish love. But a love that gives of oneself for another.

I received good news yesterday too in the mail, a long awaited judgement that finalized one area of my life, my annulment came. Praise God!

Snow

I woke to see beautiful snow on the ground and gracing the trees. Snow is always so pretty after it freshly falls, it makes everything look so pure and clean. The way the world should be.

We had a conversation yesterday about the earth and money. How it would be a different world if there wasn't any money to cause so much hardship among the people. They had said that without it, the wars would end, people would stop killing and being jealous and-so-forth.

And the same thing about those brought up in the city. This guy from Jamaica had said that the difference in women brought up in the city and the one's in the country are different. He had said that the women in the country side are brought up better with better values. While the women in the city are fast, loose and often cruel. And this is from a young man who it seems has many women.

It's funny because I had a talk about morals recently with them. It never goes over too well. Just like gossip and how we handle it. I have made comments in the way of faith and how we should not be and it still doesn't stop it but hopefully it makes them think.

In our many conversations throughout the day I have spoken about faith, the commandments, moral issues. I'm not afraid to speak about God or how we go about killing the children. I've even spoken about my own personal sin and how it can destroy a soul. That is an error we should never commit, especially when we love God.

I think about my family and the sacrifices they have made for us kids, and when we did something to hurt them how they in the goodness of their hearts have forgiven us. And I recall God's own forgiveness with me and his love in spite of my hurting him and breaking one of his commandments. And he does forgive and he heals us when we forgive ourselves.

If I didn't go through a beautiful experience then I would have a hard time with it. And now more than ever that I have truly understood the depth of his love and how he is teaching me his ways I can say this. There has been so much to understand and he gives it so we can live deeply in his love.

He gave me something special to allow me to live life the way it should be lived, in harmony with his will. That no matter what crosses I bear he is with me. And in it all I listen to him for he is the way, the truth and the life.