January 14, 2009

Ripples of Love

There are times when the Holy Spirit works quite powerfully. The last few days have been unusual ones. Quiet ones for writing but not on interior reflection. My mom had an appointment the other day, and mentioned she would stop by the Chapel and see for herself. I was there when she did, but I never knew she was there until she whispered to me that she does not see anything on the Host. Yet I see quite clearly the initials JHS on it.

Anyway this morning on my way to Mass was quite an eye opener when for some odd reason I began to think about the ex-boyfriend and something he said to me at the end of our relationship. It had to do with the way he was doing something and how he was preparing things and that brought to mind the same thing about God. How strange that his words to me so long ago has made sense about Jesus and his preparing a place for us. I know it's in the Bible, but where I don't know. I wasn't gifted with that type of knowledge to be able to place where in what Chapter or verse. But I know that what he did say to me made so much sense this morning. It was not only an eye opener it opened the door and I saw God's image in him in that moment, as well as God's Word. At the end of that relationship I had lost trust in this man and what he stood for. Yet this morning that long past conversation stood out and so did God's Word as well. And I understood far more than ever what he was saying only now it's too late for him and I. But for God it's not too late to mend our ways. Sometimes we are so blinded by our own ignorance that we push people away for fear of letting them get too close. This morning when I recalled so very much about my own stupidity I finally saw the biggest glimpse ever of what God is all about and our own treatment of Him. It was truly an amazing lesson and one I am glad to have learned. The ex-boyfriend had stated several times to me about what I thought of him, that it would be on the day I die I would see the truth about him and my mistrust.

But later on after Mass, I went home and began to tackle my preparation for Scripture sharing and found myself doing something else entirely. The picture on my sidebar of Jesus, the one I threw in the fire and it survived. I knew so much joy this day, but as I came to accept the fact that no one else sees what I see, I had begun to ask for what purpose then is this grace. Or just his wonderful way of making a bold statement of love and also to say trust in him. Yet I have trusted God all my life, at least I believe I have. Could I have been wrong then in my own thinking about this too. But the joy I felt and knew stated otherwise, it signaled his love for understanding His Word. This man from my past then played a pivotol role by bringing about an understanding of God's love even though it was said several years ago it finally became clear the true meaning of God's love in a round about way. God does use various ways to bring that understanding to light and today was one of them. The ripple effect is amazing.

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Gabrielle said...

MC, you said, "It had to do with the way he was doing something and how he was preparing things and that brought to mind the same thing about God. How strange that his words to me so long ago has made sense about Jesus and his preparing a place for us. I know it's in the Bible, but where I don't know."

Do you think it might be John 14:1-3 "Do not let your hearts be troubled. You have faith in God; have faith also in me. In my Father's house there are many dwelling places. If there were not, would I have told you that I am going to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back again and take you to myself, so that where I am you also may be."

I think it's beautiful how you saw Christ and the Word of God in your ex-boyfriend, for John also tells us they are one and the same, John 1:1 "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God."

Marie Cecile said...

Gabrielle, that is part of it, there were other words that were said that came back to memory that morning that tied in together with God's Word as well and those particular one's are the ones that were given to recall but when I wrote I could not retrieve them nor can I place in the Bible their location. But the whole of it was the fact that at that moment I did see God's Love behind it all. A powerful moment to be sure. Those were the words I was trying to write about but all I could place was his preparation. And maybe in another way that was all that I needed as well as that little bit to place His truth about His Word as well. A bit of reinforcement on His part. A most wonderful experience to have no matter what. It would be an awesome thing if others would experience God's Word in such a way to bring home the Truth of His Divine Presence.

Marie Cecile said...

Oh and thank you for locating those special verses. Your a blessing to me.

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