December 24, 2007

Continuing the Journey

As far as time frames for what is part of the things that began happening in my life, the first is the year of 1998 in the latter part of the year, I believe from October on, that was when the 2 x 4 spiritual hit occurred. There is also something else that I failed to mention was the interior conversation with our dear Father and blessed Mother as I was praying in bed. It had to do with praying the Rosary for Peace. And like everything else I tested this. That was one thing I did learn when I was young was to test whether or not it is from Heaven or not. From that point on I had begun to feel a ring on my left finger where none was. This manifestation happened a few times as well as interiorly hearing marry me. One thing I wasn't associating these things to Heaven above. I was in a relationship at the time, the beginning of it and I was assuming it was pertaining to him and the love I had for him. How wrong I was in thinking this then. But I cannot turn back the hands of time and correct what I was failing to see.

If all this was for a relationship with this person, and has since been gone now for quite sometime, then I had to come to see that it wasn't about him in my life. Because I have since then have continued having beautiful experiences with our Lord. This is something I had to also come to realize. That God doesn't do things for nothing and he chooses us not the other way around. I had already belonged to God way before I even knew how to talk and walk. And that is the way it is for all of us.

One thing is good and bad about holding things to memory is when retaining that memory eludes us. And in my case diabetes doesn't help that process. So I did fail to write much down. After awhile I did do that and some personal stuff I had to understand too. I wasn't very faithful on writing in a journal as I should have. I began writing it on here but not in a whole way but in what seemed most important to write of. So today I am correcting the time frame of what I began to tell. I am also trying to relate as I recall those beautiful moments what was happening in my life at the time and possible some of the emotions that went with it. To some it may not be important at all, and that's okay. For me at least it also helps to get a clearer picture of things. If my thinking was clouded because of what was going on in my life then it would be easier to understand why it took so long for me to come to grips with God's touching my life in such a personal way. Not everyone accepts the divine instantly when we are called or understands it. If there is one thing that I did read, it was about how some when touched can in an instant be converted while others it is a gradual process.

I don't think I was converted because He was with me always, but to grow in His calling that I would say is most likely it.

2 Words of Wisdom:

Gabrielle said...

I can really relate to many things here, mc, such as wishing I had kept a journal of the time-sequence of events, having to be hit by a 2' by 4' on several occasions because I didn't yet catch His more subtle ways, and not understanding the significance of certain things until many years later. It's all very familiar.

Marie Cecile said...

Don't you just love the way our Lord works when he touches our lives that way. It's amazing isn't it!

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