July 19, 2007

Sharing Part 2

I mentioned yesterday about sharing my pictures with three people at work. This was after work when we were all at our cars. Well anyway they saw what was there and one saw our Lady in one them. The discovery wasn't until the next day when we came to work. They said hi but there was a distance there and I saw it happening again, people putting themselves away from me. Before they would talk and joke, then after they would be afraid to talk to me. Well anyway, one of them I had a chance to say something, to not be afraid to talk to me, I'm the same person yesterday before he saw the pictures. I'm not different, but in the understanding for them I have been given a beautiful gift. To them I have been given a gift of holiness, and for the life of me I don' feel that way about myself. I feel like a normal person, who has needs and wants just like everyone else. Except I think about God constantly, that is the only difference and that is not an outward appearance. It's internal.

Well anyway, this is the best that I have been given to understand and I'm not all that sure if I related it properly. In thought it is understood but sometimes it doesn't always come out the same when writing. The funny part is later it will come to me as to how I should have worded it.

13 Words of Wisdom:

teresa_anawim said...

Just curious..what were the pictures of ?
Glad to have you pop over this a.m. to 2L and T2
teresa_anawim

teresa_anawim said...

MC..Ha Ha! I just opened up my calendar with sayings of my patron saint and this is the passage that the book fell open to. I share it with you since you were on my mind as I was turning:
"What would it matter, when you are in the arms of God if the whole world blame you!"
St Teresa / Avila from 'The Way of Perfection'

Marie Cecile said...

Teresa_anawim the pictures are of the Eucharist in the Monstrance where I had the grace to see his image and when I took the picture what was on the Host did not show up on the picture but far more than I could ever imagine. A Lamb that showed up and moved, faces of our Lord, so many things that even I had a hard time taking it in. And to this day I continue to see his face in the Eucharist at the Chapel.

Interesting what you had turned to in the book. But it's true though, what would it matter what they think as long as what God thinks matters the most. I hope they were good thoughts, lol.

Marie Cecile said...

oops calendar

teresa_anawim said...

Many times the saints had experiences and did not share them because they were not meant to be shared, but to be kept as an intimate 'moment' between the Lord and the soul. They often...many of them learned men,just couldn't understand.

Pia said...

Marie cecile, do you have a spiritual director?? These are special gifts and your soul should be well guided. This is what I felt I should say to you this day. God bless you!

Pia said...

and I meant to say, protected as well. It's so hard to find a good spiritual director today!

teresa_anawim said...

I also agee with what pia said..supernatural experiences should, of course, be shared with a s.director, but I wouldn't think it wise to share them indiscriminately with people who may not understand as a sp. director or confessor would.

Marie Cecile said...

Pia, I did have a spiritual Director, but she moved. She gave me another person to see, but in the process things developed that kept me from contacting her, such as job schedules. Now that I have steady hours and things seem to be on the up and up, I now find that I can start up with one. I originaly had asked and seen Father Plasse at the beginning and he started me out, but I was told since he is distant family, it wouldn't be wise. So I ended up somewhere else. Well anyway right now I am without.

Pia said...

Well I'm glad you have the name of someone else, and I think a woman is a good choice. But be aware that you may have to change before you find the one the Lord has designated for you. The important thing is to start on the path of being directed. It takes a lot of humility and spirit of obedience. That means trust. and that is what does not come so easily...trust in the Lord is one thing and trust in another human being who is supposed to help us walk our special path, is another

Marie Cecile said...

pia, you truly don't know me do you? When I saw the other spiritual director I did everything that was asked of me. The same as for working and studying etc, what is asked of me I do. I don't do my own thing and when the Lord asks, that is of course another matter altogether.

Pia said...

I was referring mainly to myself. I entrusted my spiritual life to someone who did not know what he was doing. I came out with a few broken spiritual bones because I trusted him, thinking he was leading me to do God's will, when instead he was using me to satisfy his psychological need to be a "savior". I'm sure you are more spiritually mature than i was at that time.

Marie Cecile said...

Oh Pia I truly misunderstood, I apologize for the misunderstanding. I know about doing what is asked of us by those we trust. But I didn't know you had an experience with one that would do such a thing. I think that is partially what keeps me from also taking that final step, the question of being directed to do something and being punished for it when we know it is wrong when they think it is right. It is what breaks my heart that power can be cruel even in religious places.

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